Today I watched this video
I knew Deen was coming out with a line of toys (and I have at least one friend who is excited to get one) [UPDATE: review] but when I watched the video I was reminded of something.
In the interview you see lots of posters of him in the store where the signing is being held. And as the camera flicked past these images I kept thinking how happy he looks in all the posters. He looks like he has nothing to hide. Like he’s saying “Hey there world! I’m me! Just like this! Warts and all! And if you don’t like it, then you can suck it!” and the world was like, “Um, ok, then I guess you’re cool.”
It reminded me of the first time I thought about the word Gay. I listened to a lot of show tunes and watched a lot of old movies when I was a kid so I remember knowing the definition of gay as happy long before I learned that it also meant homosexual.
And I remember that my first thought was how obvious the word was. How obviously gay people would describe themselves as happy. Why wouldn’t they? They’re people who show their truest selves to the world and are happily in love. Gay people must have the highest levels of gaiety because they are doing exactly what Deen is doing in those pictures. They’ve come the cleanest.
The free soul is rare, but you know it when you see it — basically because you feel good, very good, when you are near or with them.
- Charles Bukowski, Tales of Ordinary Madness [x]
I hope one day I can find out what I need to admit to the world in order to be that happy.
Related to this, I started thinking about a concept from Doctor Who. On the show the main character is called “The Doctor” and at a certain point he turns kind of… evil-ish and he’s told that on other planets, in other languages “Doctor” is a bad word. It means warrior or murderer or whatever other scary thing he doesn’t want to be.
Sometimes words have meaning before they’re applied to you. Sometimes you give words meaning when you associate with them.
The word feminist doesn’t mean “A hairy lesbian who wants to cut your balls off” it is a word which happens to encompass parts of me. I define it with what I do and believe. It doesn’t define me by your preconceived notions.