A Little More Tashlich

26 Jun

The times I miss him most are the times I remember doing things that would have sucked without him. The pinnacle of which being one specific day. What I consider the climax of our relationship. Sometimes I feel like the only way to take back the part of me he has is to give it away to as many people as possible. To diminish the amount of the relationship that he holds by spreading it around carelessly to anyone who will listen.

So to that end I’ve been spreading around pinnacle of our relationship, the moment I knew I was in love. In the hopes that it dulls the vibrancy of his hold over me, that it breaks off a few little pieces of the memory, so that it exists in fragments all around instead of whole and in my head.

It’s helping.

 

One Response to “A Little More Tashlich”

  1. Beth L. July 4, 2015 at 1:35 am #

    Yes. This. This is a feeling that I know, love, and hate. I don’t know if that’s a positive or a negative for you, but here’s an affirmation that you’re not alone in that place.

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